okay, here's the thing. i'm supposed to be asleep by now, getting some rest for tomorrow's compulsory(wth?!) counselling session. but marcus chua yong ming (not again!`grr.) decided to bug me with his thoughts. this time around, it freaked me out. but later; i too, got engrossed in the conversation.


him: if time can stop at the present, it would be good. i don't mind if the whole world dies tomorrow, you know. then it means everyone will die together; no sorrow, no pain, no sadness.
me: what is wrong with you?
him: what is wrong with me? have you ever imagined what happens when your parents pass on? do you think you will still be close to your siblings? my family, all guys; do you think we will call each other and say something like, "how is ur day? shall we go out together?". its so gay laa. furthermore, i don't want to lose my parents.
me: i guess so. omg; marcus, you're scaring me!
him:`cos remember i told you i'd started thinking about my future; what i should be, etc. ? then i think about it more & more. haas.


and the conversation went on and on;

1. death
2. parents
3. siblings
4. marriage
5. family
6. kids

and also of his enlistment into ns.


so now; i've caught the peter pan syndrome.
from marcus.

i don't want to grow up.