we finally talked. yeah, guess if you're close to someone you just can't stand not talking to each other that long. and guess what? the only reason we acted the way we did was because we always found ourselves neglecting one another. ohwhattheck.

and i'm feeling so low down inside now for ever having judged him. i mean, he didn't blow up at me after knowing the reason why i was not talking to him even though i know, I KNOW it affected him deeply, in some way or another. call myself a friend, but i never did try to understand him or his feelings.

reality check. its not you whom i don't trust; its HER.

and to think i left you struggling all on your own. to think i neglected your feelings. to think i neglected your ideals and stand on issues. to think i bypassed your principles on girls. there's so much to think about; the mistakes i made, that it makes me tired. and sad.

bottom line: i'm really sorry. i'll try to make it up to you somehow. i mean it this time. no more secrets. no more judging. no more whatsoevernots.