i feel so terpinggir from the 'malay' scene at TPJC. yes, i was a MLEP student and part of the MCS(DRAMA) in the firstthreemonths. unfortunately, things took a turn for the worse after PAE, and for JAE.

firstly, AYAH was so keen on MJ instead of the promised "whatever the outcome, just stay in TPJ". so, being the filial daughter that i am, i heeded. during online application, i was offered MLEP, but AYAH gave a firm "NO". and there, went my chances of SCHOLARSHIP. it flew off just like that - gone with the wind. upon the release of posting results, i was posted to TPJ instead of MJ. (yaayyy for me but nt my parents.) again, i tried to subtly approach AYAH and coax him to allow me to take H2MLL. though a scholarship was already out of the question, i was still keen on taking up H2MLL as a subject, sekaligus making me a MLEP student. but once again, AYAH's answer was still a firm "NO". i heeded. during CCA orientation, i wanted to continue with MCS. confided in my parents. unfortunately, once again, AYAH gave me a firm "NO". instead, i was forced to join the LIBRARY SOCIETY.

to make things worse, my current subject combination, is one of my AYAH's choice.

and so, i currently hate my life. my path is set. but its not one of my choice. but i can't say anything `cos i've got to listen to my PARENTS. so people, if you read this entry, please understand my plight and refrain from mentioning my unfortunate situation IN MY FACE.

thank you very much.